Any cancer patient knows this word, it has so much “punch” behind it. It goes without saying we all need to go through it but we absolutely hate knowing, it’s happening.
Treatment is angry all the time. It hurts when you get it. It is relentless. Half the time you want to strangle it. It is scary. It’s your worse nightmare. It is cold. It’s hateful. It makes you sad. It makes you cry. Treatment makes your veins toxic. It makes you feel terrible. It gives you a stomach ache. You throw up. You can’t eat. You can’t sleep. You cry and cry some more. It makes you cringe. It makes you hate the moment, you see that chair. You want out of the chair, the moment you sit down. You hate yourself for having to ask, “why me”. You want to rip out the IV. You ask yourself over and over again, “when will this end”! It’s what you need. It’s what kills cancer. It’s what destroys your tumors. Treatment is the devil!
Your body is screaming. Your veins feel like they will explode. It’s your best option. It’s your only option! You feel light headed. Your weak. Your afraid. Your desperate to live. It holds the key to your future. You need it. You don’t want it. You have to have it. You can’t wait for it to be over. You can’t sleep. You are vomiting- again. You feel like you ate metal. You’re starving but can’t eat anything. You want to crawl out of your skin. You can’t get comfortable. Your feeling alone. Your not sure what to do. You try to close your eyes. Your body aches everywhere. Your muscles are screaming. This is only round 1!
Welcome to treatment!